Drop Dead Generous

I was given a $500 USD grant from Drop Dead Generous to spread small moments of unexpected kindness across the city. I shared this on Facebook and asked my friends to double it, and they did. My plan is simple: wherever I go, I want to surprise people by covering the cost of what they’re buying. That could mean paying for someone’s groceries, bus fare, coffee for everyone in a café, a round of beers for strangers, buying all the mangos from a beach vendor, and more. Easy right? Yeah I thought so too. But my lack of fluency and desire to help, not treat, is making this what was meant to be a fun kindness experiment not fun at all. 
So far I've covered a round of drinks, covered 10 entry fees for women to go dancing at the club, gave a few big tips to music artists, and a  grocery bagger, gave money to a lady walking through traffic asking for donations for her son's hospital bills, and donated money to cover a chemo therapy treatment for a sick dog. And with that being said we have arrived at my internal struggle. How can I be throwing money around for beers, and treats when there are people in need, serious need?
Puerto Vallarta is very much a tourist town / expat destination. There is a lot of money to be made here off the people who aren't from here. But not everyone is in a place to make that money, and wages don't stretch as far here as they do in the US. To put it simply this is a place of the haves and have nots. You will see beautiful homes and condos here, owned by people with equally awesome cars. But you will also find homes without proper plumbing, dirt floors, no ac, and no screens on the windows here. The haves and have nots. 
When I asked for this grant my proposal was that I'd use the money to treat the people of Puerto Vallarta. I submitted my request shortly after the situation with the cartel lighting the city on fire and wanted to do this a just a lil something special for the people. But here I am in the middle of it, I see so much need around me, and suddenly buying beers and mangos seems like a misuse of the money. Even though the money was granted to me for just that, it feels like wrong to be treating people when others are struggling and those few pesos for a beer would really help them a lot just to get by. 
Drop Dead Generous has a WhatsApp group with the founders for grantees to chat about their projects and how things are going. I think I'll take this to the group and get their thoughts. Because I still have about half the money, I feel like I'm using it sparingly out of guilt. I'd love to just finish it up and be done with this. This was suppose to be fun, instead I'm living with the weight of it. - Nolan